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Tuesday, January 5th, 2010

fenixdownreborn

9:29p Final Fantasy II Fanfic Prologue Between playing Dissidia and replaying FFII, I've been getting a desire to take a stab at a relatively short (at present, this things have a way of doubling in anticipated size over time) fanfic from the villain perspective (since there's not much else to go into with the heroes durig the game events since you play as them). The story is primarily going to be about Emperor Mateus, but the Dark Knight and even Count Borghen will have their moments too. Anyway, here's my prologue for the story I typed up today, it's short but accomplishes what I intended. Feel free to comment if you like. ( FFII Fanfic ) current mood: creative current music: Yamcha the Scar-Faced Bandit - TeamFourStar

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fenixdownreborn

10:47a 2009 Reflections First post of the new year. Not a whole lot to talk about though. Didn't bother staying up for the end of the year; it's so much harder to intentionally stay up until midnight than it is to stay up that late on accident. That and I was bored so I went to bed early, only to wake up a couple minutes before midnight. So I guess it kind of worked out, though I didn't bother getting up. 2009 had a lot of crap going on that I could've gone without, but there were some pretty good times too. Having Silver over for a few days in April was fun, highlighted by attending the Grand Rapids Distant Worlds concert. Getting to shake hands with Arnie Roth and Nobuo Uematsu was definitely worth the trip alone, but the concert itself was very enjoyable as well. Unfortunately, there were some bleak times too. My uncle died at the end of August, that really left a mark on the family. He had a stroke a few months beforehand that was caused by some cancer in the brain that left him barely able to function on his own. It didn't take the cancer long to finish the job, it happened a lot quicker than any of us expected. And it was all too soon. The day after the funeral I quit that job I've had since 2000 over a combination of built of stress/frustration and ethical issues revolving around doing renovations during business hours. It was a violation of trust between a business and its customers and I could not accept it. Of course, now I'm working there again in a smaller job with fewer hours and less money but it's a more enjoyable position than what I had before. The job market is still pretty bad right now. On December 12th, I took my first drive to Chicago to meet up with Seeker and Panther and see another Distant Worlds Final Fantasy concert. We had fun in the hotel before going to the Rosemont Theatre. The concert was even better than the one in Grand Rapids and I got to attend another meet and greet after the show. I got autographs from Arnie Roth, Susan Calloway, and Nobuo Uematsu and passed on a copy of the Final Fantasy IV OverClocked Remix album to Nobuo-san on behalf of DA, OA, and everyone else involved with the project. The trip was worth it, but I could've gone without the car troubles from the drive home. Christmas was fun this year. And those are the key points of 2009 that I'll always remember. current mood: contemplative current music: Kiss Me Goodbye - Susan Calloway at Distant Worlds (via youtube)

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Friday, January 1st, 2010

seraphofevil

4:57a The Divine Comedy...I doubt it's funny The Seventh Circle of Hell - Violence * Awaiting Dante in Hell's seventh circle are the three abominable domains in which the fearsome Archdemons watch over the violent damned according to their particular sin: the first two being Phlegethon, the endless river of boiling blood which torments those who are violent against others and The Wood of Suicides for those who are violent against themselves. (emphasis added) Well, I guess I know where I'm going. Kinda dissolves the mystery doesn't it? Ah hell, I've come to terms a long time ago I was going to Hell. This is the part where Finnicks/Fenixlyonis would say 'you can ask for forgiveness of your sins and be absolved' or something similar. I am very well aware of that. I used to pray to God. Not once did I ask for forgiveness though. I accept my fate. Yeah, I get all crazy when I can't sleep. Meh, was looking up some stuff on Dante's Inferno (new game coming out) and seen this in the description. I got bored. I made the connection. Guess now the wonder is whether you need to be violent against yourself to the death or not. I suppose the mystery lives! But not horribly long. I've never felt it was my fate to live a long life. But then again, all of those thoughts were when I was single, and thought my fate was to be single forever. I probably will be now. But live a long life? I have little control over that, I suppose. Fate will decide how my life ends, whether I take it or somebody else. Ok, I'm rambling (yes, Yimi, I think way, WAY too much) -_- sleep time.

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seraphofevil

12:22a Short and Sweet A happy new years to all eh. I'll be sending out more texts and wishes tomorrow. Oddly enough, I tried to send one to the ex and it wouldn't send. I guess that's a sign. But yes, here is hoping that this new year brings a better year for all of us, not just me (I've been told I have to be selfish!). Here is hoping for a year of more joy, more loyalty, more love, and more...everything positive! A Happy New Years to all eh. Everybody is open to comments here!

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blackcaptain

4:53a And they rally! Funny how a single person can drag the whole group down. Hopefully his absence for tonight's rather good night will teach my friends to just... stop letting him.

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Wednesday, December 30th, 2009

fenixdownreborn

8:04p Casino Experience Yesterday, as part of my grandpa's christmas gift, my mom, her bf, and I took him to a new casino relatively close to where he lives. It was my first time so I wasn't sure what to expect really. Was overwhelmed by the ringing of bells and the flashing of lights for the first half hour or so (wasn't really sure of the time) but after trying a couple slot games and a video poker one, and losing about $5 or so, I had my fill. It's probably more fun when you have more money and take a stab at the card tables, but since I didn't have that kind of cash to put on the line, I was just bored. On the plus side, I did manage to get New Super Mario Bros. Wii on the way home, so the trip was not a total waste. So far the game is enjoyable, I beat the first world today. I do need to adjust to using motion controls with the classic gameplay. Sometimes I wish I could just use a button though... current music: The Sky Holds No Angels for Us (Damcyan Castle) - OCR FFIV EoBLoR

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Monday, December 28th, 2009

fenixdownreborn

10:06a Christmas Post The holiday went well this year. I didn't get very much in the way of gifts but I appreciated what I did receive and I'm glad that everyone I gave something to seemed to enjoy what that was. Talked with a lot of relatives that I don't see very often from both sides of the family and showed some of them my signed CDs and pictures from the Distant Worlds concert trip. Played a heated game of Pictionary at my Grandma's house on Christmas as well. Things that I received: - Headset with mic for the computer - The Ghost King by R. A. Salvatore in hardcover - Anansi Boys and a compilation of short stories based on Neil Gaiman's Sandman - CD Boombox - $25 gift card for Walmart - $20 taped to a bottle of Coca-cola - This neat looking staff/spear with a pair of blades on the end resembling insect mandibles - New gloves and a hat - A lottery ticket that won $1 - A lottery ticket that didn't win at all - A $25 Best Buy gift card - Deathnote wallscroll and Santa stress ball from P and Seeker during the trip. Things I gave: - A bunch of burned CDs of Uematsu music for some of the girls at work, and a couple aunts/uncles - Memory stick and case for Mom's new camera - Mario Power Tennis for the Wii for Mom's bf. Also got him the original Zelda off the Virtual Console - Emailed my sister some sheet music of Celes and the Coin Song from FFVI, as well as the files of the piano collection's arrangements - $25 gift card for the Bonefish Grill (and other associated places) hidden inside a box of chocolate-covered cherries for my Dad - A 2010 horse-themed calender, a snowman-shaped picture frame and some cookie cutters for my dad's fiancee - Season one of the Beverly Hillbillies on DVD for Grandma - Some money for Grandpa for the next time he goes gambling

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blackcaptain

4:48a Ugh, I need some new people in my life.

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Sunday, December 27th, 2009

seraphofevil

2:53a Insomnia Cures Livejournal has been incredibly productive for me in an outlet for my fears, my anger, etc. Let's see if it can work towards a cure. I've been having insomnia for far too long. It's destroying my body. I can't operate. So if you have methods of forcing sleep, let's hear them. I'll try anything. The ex had many methods she suggested to me, and I will try them as well. But if you have any method of sleeping that you use that are not drug related, then hit me with them. I would prefer not alcohol-related as well: for now, alcohol seems to be taking my mind into dark places where suicide is dwelling, so I will avoid that.

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Saturday, December 26th, 2009

seraphofevil

7:55p Insomnia My insomnia came full-steam last night. I could not sleep. I got 30 minutes of sleep before Boxing Day. Got to work at 645, got home around 10, took a sleeping pill and slept until 530. Seems lately, the only way I can truly sleep is through sleeping pills. The only way my mind will shut down long enough to allow me to sleep.

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Friday, December 25th, 2009

seraphofevil

10:18p Text O' Jolly I'm not particular happy or joyful this holiday season, but that doesn't mean that I didn't wish it upon others! I think I texted 20 people today (even a couple I've never texted before). Pretty much everybody responded. I even texted the ex to wish her a merry christmas. No reply. I thought I was being civil, but oh well, her choice. So now I get ready for sleep. Gotta be into work at 630am for Boxing Day...NOT looking forward to that. I better have a beer and pass out by 11. At least, that's my goal.

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seraphofevil

12:06a Merry Christmas It's hard to wish much during this holiday. I know it's only materials, but the only presents that I have (or will) receive are coming from people outside my country. Due to my work situation, I cannot travel to family for Xmas. My sister stayed at home, but my parents went to my grandmothers, 6 hours away. I am alone for this holiday. And it hurts to know that, perhaps, I shouldn't be. EDIT: No, I am not alone for the holidays, not truly alone. But I still feel it. There isn't much point in saying much else, everybody who reads this thinks that I'm either out to get attention or am just whining like crazy. But to those that do, those I care for, merry christmas. I hope it goes much better for you then it will for me.

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